She deserves a second chance? Come on!!!

Just like many followers of POTSC I felt a little "uncomfortable" about the new campaign poster of Casey Anthony.

It brought out feelings that I did not know how to deal with.   I mean, I am the queen of needing forgiveness, grace, and second chances, but HER?  Really?  She deserved it too?   No way.......she killed her child, right?

So, just like many others, I have battled through many different feelings this week.   Did I deserve a second chance when I wasted my parents money and failed out of college the first year?  Did I deserve a second chance when I made horrid decisions during my college years?   Did I deserve a second chance when I failed miserably at my marriage?   Of course, I did!  Because I was "me" - and "I" always deserve a second chance, right?  "We" always deserve second chances, but "those people" who do really bad things, um, not so much.

My brain numbed......I had a hard time figuring this out.  I love Jesus.  I was saved at age 8.  I have done missionary work and helped out in many different ministries.  Good grief, in my job right now I love people at their worst and try and help them get back on their feet, but Casey Anthony.   Hmmm.......

I searched the Scriptures and that is what I would encourage you to do also.   Dig deep within yourself and listen to Jesus' words.  NO one is beyond a second chance and that doesn't mean just "me" and "you".  That means EVERYONE - all God's Children.   So, if the new POTSC campaign offends you or makes you angry inside, then GOOD - that's the point.   Search yourself.  Search the Scriptures and most of all remember how many second chances you have had.   Most of all, the hardest part, is remembering that Christ did not just die for you.  He died for us all, even Casey if she receives Him.

For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast.  Ephesians 2: 8-9

Ending A Chapter

Tomorrow we travel back down to Winchester to empty out the last belongings and close on our house.  I am excited to get it done and close that chapter of our lives and move onto the next.  We were so blessed to meet so many wonderful people in Winchester, but now that we are here we know that we are beginning another new and exciting chapter of our lives.   When we moved to Winchester, our marriage was completely in the dumps and we were both mentally and emotionally exhausted from many situations we had gone through.   Looking back, I can see how our time in Winchester both gave us some time of healing and also some time of battling through issues as a couple.  It also gave us the opportunity to minister to those in need in South Dakota and minister to Youth within our church.   It gave me time to learn that I really needed to show Christ's love to Chris no matter how wrong I felt he was or how right I thought I was.   I also needed to come to a point of surrendering our marriage and family to God.   Lots of Christians think they "surrender", but when it comes down to it, I don't believe many of us truly have.   True surrender involves humility and brokenness.    Our Christian life is a journey, but I can see now that he had us in a place during these past 6 years to teach us some pretty deep stuff and now we are ready to move on.   We are a little stronger and ready to be more and more radically devoted to Christ.   We struggle, but we keep moving on.

Our pastor today spoke about being a "fan" of Jesus or being a "follower" of Jesus.   Being a fan involves being "religious" and "legalistic" while being a true follower of Jesus involves being transformed daily into a closer image of Christ.    My prayer is that I keep journeying on trying to become more like Him.   My prayer for you is the same.   He has us all at different places for different reasons - just don't quit journeying on.

What more?

We knew God was up to something months big before we made our move back to Nashville.  You know that feeling?  That anxious, exciting feeling that He is working, but you just don't know what He is up to?  Well, I had that "gut" feeling for about a year before we moved, but just didn't know where He was leading us.   And now here I sit.  Here in my little apartment north of Nashville.  Here where He led us.  Here I sit with a job that God literally handed to me (thanks to some pastors from Cross Point being open to God's leading).  We know we are where we are supposed to be, yet I still feel that nudge - that "gut" feeling that He is up to more.   And quite honestly, I don't have time for that right now Lord.   I have a new challenging job and three teenagers who are transitioning into a new school system and have left all their closest friends.   I have a husband who travels, meals to cook, bills to pay and a Dad to help get moved up this way.   Yet, I still feel Him calling.  I hear Him saying "you are almost there, My child, but not quite yet."   So, here I am.   Listening.  Wanting to know what more it is He wants from me.  Is it my life story He wants me to share?   Is it our marriage story He wants me to share?   Is it a ministry He wants me involved in?   I just don't know.  So here I sit.  Here in my little apartment north of Nashville.   Listening.....

Settling

The last week has been a complete and total blur.  Seriously.  We have had a ton of things to accomplish before school starts and I begin my job tomorrow, and thankfully I "think" we are ready.  

God has been good to us.   We were blessed a welcoming meal the first night here at our apartment, things went smoothly with the transition into the apartment, and registration for the kids at school went off without a hitch.   Of course, there have been challenges with our mail being forwarded and some banking issues, but  nothing to complain about in comparison to the blessings we have received this week.  We feel at peace.  We feel at home.  We feel closer as a family and we feel "lighter".  

I am sure there will be days of feeling homesick and days full of challenges, but overall we feel sure God called us here and can't wait to meet new people, make new friends and see what all He has in store for our family! 

Barreling down the tracks......

The "move" is really hitting home now - almost in a surreal sort of way.   We are four days out from driving our moving van away from the home we have spent the last 6 years in.  There have been good and bad times, as there always are, but my focus seems to be honing in on the good the past few days.   Thinking of new friends made, porch-sitting time with my husband, times out on the lake with friends, working our butts off on remodeling this 120 year old home, homework with kids at our dining room table.  The list goes on and on......I will miss it.   But, I do know that the Lord is calling us forward for some reason - why? - I have no idea.   I am looking forward to making new memories in Hendersonville and hopefully making some new friends and spending time with old ones from Nashville that I haven't gotten to see in awhile.   God is good - He has a plan and no matter how much I wish I knew it - I don't.   And that's okay.....

I Don't Know Much

I don't know what is coming for our family.  I don't know how badly we will miss living here.  I don't know much at all right now.  But here is what I do know.......He is God.  And this is my favorite song and I choose to worship Him no matter what.

Hosanna!!!! 

My Miss the Most List about Winchester

#1.    B.J. Mathis and the most awesome yutes in the world at WCPC.  I have been so privileged and so blessed to have help serve B.J. and the youth for the past 5 years.  I will SO miss helping with the 30-Hour Famine each year.  Great times and great memories.   I love you all very much.  Love ya Beej!

The Valley of Dry Bones (Ezekiel 37: 1-14)

The past year to me has felt like wandering through a valley of dry bones.  Read Ezekiel 37: 1-14.  And these past few weeks and days I have felt myself very thirsty and dry.

During my quiet time this morning, I found myself asking "Can these bones live?".   The answer is YES - God can always bring us to a place of spiritual renewal and life.  The real question I believe is - "Do these bones want to live?".   In our journey with Christ, we definitely go through seasons of spiritual struggle - if we aren't we may need to question our growth.  But there are also times in our journey with Christ where we may feel the desire to "quit".  The past year has definitely been a time of spiritual struggle for me, and there have definitely been times where I wanted to "throw the towel in", but it is time to ask myself - "do these bones want to live?".   The answer is, and for my entire life has always been - YES.  So, today I pray for a renewal of my spirit, for a fresh wind of new life to blow through.   I pray forgiveness and grace and an outpouring of the Holy Spirit.  I pray it this morning for all of you too.

Have you ever found yourself  in the valley?  

Word of the Day

anx·i·e·ty

 - a noun

1. A feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome.

2. Desire to do something, typically accompanied by unease.

"I know that love is ultimately the only answer to mankind's problems. And I'm going to talk about it everywhere I go. I know it isn't popular to talk about it in some circles today. I'm not talking about emotional bosh when I talk about love, I'm talking about a strong, demanding love. And I have seen too much hate. I've seen too much hate on the faces of sheriffs in the South. I've seen hate on the faces of too many Klansmen and too many White Citizens Councilors in the South to want to hate myself, because every time I see it, I know that it does something to their faces and their personalities and I say to myself that hate is too great a burden to bear. I have decided to love. If you are seeking the highest good, I think you can find it through love. And the beautiful thing is that we are moving against wrong when we do it, because John was right, God is love. He who hates does not know God, but he who has love has the key that unlocks the door to the meaning of ultimate reality."  

Martin Luther King, Jr.